golB s'uA

I have been encountering with Buddhism related matter during past few weeks. It has shaken my faith in Buddhism that I have been holding on to for years.

I myself is a Buddhist. I believe in its doctrine. I behave the way Buddhist should behave, though not all of what other people have been doing, but that's not a big deal.

The story of one monk and his female friend has come to my attention. Talking to female is not prohibited for monk. But he must talk to female ones without passion. (At least that's my understanding)

That monk calls and talks to his female friend for more than 30 minutes every night. Plus longer time during holidays. He also mentioned about other monks bullying young newly ordained monks and videotaped them.

This totally ruins my belief and faith in what I am believing.
You made yourself become a monk because you want to study Buddhism's doctrine, discipline yourself and learn how to live calmly.

Not just to be a part of big boy private club, where people who can join must be bald, no eyebrows, wearing orange and do not eat dinner.

I believe there's a lot of Supatipanno (Monk who does good). I tend to make myself hold on to those monks. I wish them with all my heart the courages to continue studying and spreading out good Buddhism doctrines.